16 Days!

16 days to go... the dreaded recital is finally upon us... will she survive? I have contemplated if it would be easier to just end it... find a rope, drink some arsenic, you know... end it... It might be easier than cramming all this music into my head last minute... I mean its not totally last minute because some of it I have been working on since May. I'd hate to see what kind of state I would be in if I hadn't started! Then I think jumping out of a tall bulding would have been the better choice. But I know that all of my friends are right and that I will make it, I WILL pull this off, get my Master's and officially be part of the "Real World" A real starving artist... actually I could use some of that starving seeing as I gained 20-25lbs in the past 3 months! I dont know what happened its not like im stressed or anything...! :)

So on top of those two extremely stressful things Audition season is once again upon us and that means countless applications, fees, and trips to NYC to try and make it in the big bad operatic world. Shouldnt be that hard right... come on its OPERA for God's sake not that many people do that... WRONG! There are usually 500 Soprano's vying for the same single spot in Podunk Opera Co's Not-so-young artist program. But we will keep on keeping on! The persistent/talented/prepared/Well-endowed Diva gets her Worm... so to speak!

Also might I say that Temping is an odd thing... My first day I was on the 35th floor of a 37 story building where the company had its own chef and all I had to do was sit there and learn my music until a fax needed delivering. Now however I am hunched over a desk for 7 hours typing endless numbers into an excel spreadsheet that I HOPE to God is going to be used for something. I have officially entered some 8000 numbers in the past 8 days!

In re-reading this post I realize I sound rather negative, sarcastic and irreverent, but negative nonetheless so I guess I shall add "cultivate a more positive outlook" to my "list of things to do before Im thirty" right there next to become a supermodel and lose my virginity...